Send me a message and tell me
What you’d do if i died today? What would your last words to me be?
Would you miss me?
Copy and past if your not afraid
This is true
(via teenagerposts)
Ive had more then enough time to say something….
I just cant, I guess i need to man up before its too late but knowing my luck it already is :(……
but do you know it?????… Nope cause i dont show it
Why do i hide everything????
I hide EVERYTHING having to do with emotion/love, I guess i figure i dont show it they cant use it against me, no matter how much it hurts wanting to tell that person, I cant and even if i do it always happens i manage to turn into someone im not… a douche bag, I guess im afraid of what ifs even though i cant really see myself with somebody else, i dont understand myself sometimes, I just wish I could type it all out not thin about it and press send but no i have to re read it and be like “oh she will think im lying or im just say that” by the time that’s over all that comes out is “I miss you” BLAH BLAH BLAH i dont know what to do!!!!!!!
This was my cousin Scott and I back when i was 8 or 9, didnt have a clue about how hard life was going be be 10 years later, didnt have to worry about it, a TRUE GENUINE smile was on my face, now all im faced with is the harsh reality of growing up and putting on a fake “smile”. I just want to be happy again :/
Life as i know it
I always seem to fuck things up with people when things are going good, its like embedded in my DNA, you will love somebody you will do anything for this person, BUT at the same time your going to be a complete dick to them in the process in which they will hate you for eternity, Why do i push people away? I know my mom is gone, I know there’s nothing i can do to get her back I know “nobody will replace her love” but at the same time i feel like id be losing her by replacing her, I just wish things would actually go right for me instead of fucking good things up all the time. because i want a relationship, i really do but there’s just something holding me back, in the past, that’s where im going to stay forever i guess unless some girl comes along with a tow rope and pulls me out of this deep hole ive dug trying to get out, i just hope nothing breaks on the way out
